TheWaysOfAscent wrote:Salam everybody,
Today I realized something really terrible. I was thinking of the wars in Iraq and Afganistan and it suddenly hit me hard that for almost ten years the innocent people of those countries have been bombed pillaged and murdered without remorse or mercy from the heartless psychopathic troops of the US itself. I live in the US and i felt this awful feeling sweep over my entire body and i became so filled with guilt and despair and all i wanted to do was try to find some way to help them to help them out but i realized there was no way i could. I had a severe nervous breakdown, my entire body was constantly twiching, ive been having constant adrenaline rushes since 11:00 this morning, my heart was beating way too fast and eyesight was way off focus. I feel slightly better now MashAllah, but i still feel helpless to assist the oppressed. Ive never felt so much confusion, frustration, nervousness and sadness in all my life, and it still has me feeling really low. If any one can offer words of kindness or advice i would really appreciate it. Peace and Mercy of Allah be with us all.
Ws bro, thank you for sharing your words, thoughts and feelings that have come from a place deep in your heart. God has blessed you with kindness and a loving spirit that cares for others and loves others-and it is a rare thing to find in this world today.
The fact that you feel this pain and hurt inside shows your body could not take it anymore, there is a saying: the mind suffers and the body cries out, as for the symptoms you felt of nervous breakdown-believe me I can relate to nervous breakdown, it is the scariest dam feeling ever! Not nice at all-you think youâ€™re dying and shrinking into some dark pit of nothingness especially if you not had one before it can be a worrying experience, (you havenâ€™t had something like this before?-if so please check with a doc just to be sure) donâ€™t worry too much on the feelings you had-when I got them dear bro-I remember I could not breathe and my body begun freezing up, the key is to breathe in and out slow nice breaths-and Inshalalh you will begin to feel better and the body will begin to relax and let go of the tension built up.
Whatâ€™s happening/has happened and is still happening to the oppressed people of Iraq and Afghanistan is what you said it is-nothing short of genocide and murder by the psycho devil worshiping dark forces. And who are the victims (children, babies, women, widows) always the weak and those unable to defend themselves.
When one seesâ€™s daily pictures of horror of dead children and babies born with genetic defects due to biological weapons it can be more than distressing and sometimes you just feel such a wave of anger and frustration come over your entire being-you start to feel more frustrated and helpless (as you think there is nothing I can do)
My bro, the feelings you felt rush around in your body: the nervousness, confusion, frustration and sadness-these are a manifestation from the inner mind and heart to the outer- they will subside in time.
Please donâ€™t feel helpless way of ascent- you have inside of you so much power and so much potential, there is so much fire and courage-that Allah The Most High will help you find your place and help you grow heights you never thought you had! Right now you feel that you cannot help or might feel unable to-in time God indeed will make those inward feelings and aspirations to help the nations of Iraq and Afghanistan
I hope I havenâ€™t waffled on bro? I will send you some healing later today to help you, Inshallah you will begin to feel whole and calm with the feelings.
For now take some time out and feel free to go out in the countryside or parks and when you feel recharged and in tune again.
Then maybe in a few days, you can write up a list of things/topics to do with the conflicts facing the two nations, and Allah will guide your heart and soul to find ways of helping them, even the smallest of actions can be of such mighty blessings.
If you want I will help you with it no problem-you can make notes on the affects it has had on the children, the orphans and the widows and perhaps creating a blog/word press (just an example) to show their plight and raise money to help them.
I apologise if this is rushed as I running little late to be somewhere and have to catch the train.
Stay strong way of ascent-
If you need to chat feel free to p.m me.
God bless you .